I wiggled my toes, feeling the sand squeeze up between them.
I looked out to the pontoon estimating its distance from the shore, then behind to my family, my unshakeable support crew.
I can do this, I can, at least I think I can, maybe I can’t, what if I can’t,…..and on went the chatter in my mind.
A group of teens swam out, one by one climbing aboard and leaping for joy at their achievement. I wanted to join them.
A man walking his dog paused beside me. “Looks like fun , what are you waiting for?”, he said.
“It has been a while, and I haven’t trained properly” was my answer.
“Oh! Can you swim?” he said.
“Yes, I taught myself. I swam regularly for many years, I even swam competitively once.” I declared.
“So what is holding you back now?” he asked.
“I have never swam outside of a pool and like I said I haven’t been properly trained. I am worried I won’t make it?” I said nervously.
“It sounds like you have all the experience and skill you need,” he said.
“Who are they?” he asked, nodding to my friends and family.
“They are here to support me, cheer me on and help me if I get stuck”.
“Then what do you have to lose?” he asked.
“My pride, I want to know I can do this before I try”, I stammered.
“Tell me” he then asked, “How will you know for certain by standing here?”
I did not answer, I could not answer. I knew there would be no guarantee of success.
The man then asked one final important question, “What will it take for you to believe in your own abilities?”
“I am not sure”, I answered.
We said goodbye and he continued on down the beach and I stood still, pondering the answer to his question.
What will it take for me to believe in my abilities?
The longer I stood there the more my fear and insecurities grew, chipping away at my self confidence.
An entire ocean of possibility lay stretched out before me and it was time to dive in.
I was no longer happy to observe I wanted to swim my own line.
This was my moment, time to believe in myself.
I slowly entered the water……..
Is there something you would love to do? Do you find yourself continually standing by, watching and waiting for the right time to join in?
Is it a class you want to take? A race you would like to attempt? A person you want to introduce yourself too or maybe a group you would like to join?
What one thing can you do today to bring yourself closer to joining in on your dream?