My son recently played a basketball game at my old high school. Before the game I found myself wandering the familiar school grounds and pausing to peer into classroom windows.
As I gazed nostalgically across the oval, I recalled my final year there.
That nervous and exciting year with adulthood looming around the corner.
Your teenage brain desperately trying to have it all figured out. Trying to mesh together your interests and passions and turn them toward a successful career.
Your hormones, peer pressure and school and family expectations all colliding and confusing your decision-making.
I remembered that 17-year-old me and how I wanted my next birthday to hurry up.
I rushed my assignments so I could go shopping with friends, spending all my money on fashion and make up. I wanted to meet boys, become a maths teacher and I did not want to stay home on a Saturday night.
Jump another ten years and I was ready to marry a boy, and saving for a home was more important than my next outfit. Teachers college was a faded memory and I was deeply entrenched in my role as a retail store manager.
I was working hard and sought opportunities to progress and yet exhausted I longed for those precious days off.
Needless to say, 10 years on life was a complete flip around.
My gorgeous homewares were now packed away and I wanted a home filled with unbreakables and toys.
I wanted a part-time job to get me out of the house and my idea of a great weekend was to get an early night and sleep in until 7am.
My babies are older and I want to declutter. I want to get rid of a whole lot of stuff I spent years collecting
I want less to manage and less to worry about.
I want the freedom to do work that I enjoy and that makes a difference in this world.
I want to have adventures and I want to enjoy the time I spend with my family.
I want romantic dates with that boy I married.
I want to laugh a lot, and then some more.
I want to have the energy to skip and the flexibility to move freely.
I want to create daily and I want to be still.
17-year-old me couldn’t have known all of that.
Life evolves, our dreams evolve.
What we want changes.
What interests us changes.
What fulfils us changes.
What we desire changes.
When was the last time you sat down and thought about what you want?
What you want today?
Thought about what you desire?
What you desire now?
Thought about your life in its entirety and how fulfilled you are?
Are you chasing dreams that are decades old?
Are there dreams you let go and would like to reignite?
Are you managing things you can do without?
Are you working to pay for things you no longer want?
Are you upholding commitments to things you no longer want to do?
Are you living without direction?
This is your one great life.
You do get to want what you want and it is up to you to go get it.