My sleep was restless, I awoke tired and cranky.
As I stared in the mirror I knew, today was that day.
Today was that day I feared, the day I did not feel happy.
How can I write about Captured Bliss when I do not even feel slightly happy.
The fear of this day happening almost held me back from challenging myself to write about Captured Bliss for all 31 Days in October.
Bliss is not even visible on the horizon.
I am in a dip, a low spot.
I don’t feel happy and I don’t want to.
Today I am choosing to feel my other feelings, let them out for a walk, or even run.
Today I accept that I am human and that means I will have lows and highs.
Today I accept that I am not supposed to always be happy.
Today I don’t want to write about bliss, I want to take care of myself.
Today I will trust the truth, I will share with you how I wrangled a day without Bliss.
I Indulged – a pretty treat on a pretty plate admired with my eyes and then again with my taste buds.
I Relieved – furious, unedited writing in my journal until no more words could spill forth.
I Prioritised Me – dug out that recipe I have been dying to cook and no one else likes. Cooked it for me.
I Absorbed – a comfy spot, outside, eyes closed as I listened and smelled nature.
Later I will enjoy a bath.
Then I plan to go to bed early.
Bliss did not come today, happy didn’t either, that’s okay today is that day.
Today is that day I gained strength.
Today is that day I trusted my Truth and it overcame my fear.
Today is that day I feared. It came, I showed up and I am okay.
Today is that day……and tomorrow is a new day.
Have you showed up when you don’t want to? How did you do it?
This is day 12 of my 31 days of Captured Bliss.