My sleep was restless, I awoke tired and cranky.
As I stared in the mirror I knew, today was that day.
Today was that day I feared, the day I did not feel happy.
How can I write about Captured Bliss when I do not even feel slightly happy.
The fear of this day happening almost held me back from challenging myself to write about Captured Bliss for all 31 Days in October.
Bliss is not even visible on the horizon.
I am in a dip, a low spot.
I don’t feel happy and I don’t want to.
Today I am choosing to feel my other feelings, let them out for a walk, or even run.
Today I accept that I am human and that means I will have lows and highs.
Today I accept that I am not supposed to always be happy.
Today I don’t want to write about bliss, I want to take care of myself.
Today I will trust the truth, I will share with you how I wrangled a day without Bliss.
I Indulged – a pretty treat on a pretty plate admired with my eyes and then again with my taste buds.
I Relieved – furious, unedited writing in my journal until no more words could spill forth.
I Prioritised Me – dug out that recipe I have been dying to cook and no one else likes. Cooked it for me.
I Absorbed – a comfy spot, outside, eyes closed as I listened and smelled nature.
Later I will enjoy a bath.
Then I plan to go to bed early.
Bliss did not come today, happy didn’t either, that’s okay today is that day.
Today is that day I gained strength.
Today is that day I trusted my Truth and it overcame my fear.
Today is that day I feared. It came, I showed up and I am okay.
Today is that day……and tomorrow is a new day.
Have you showed up when you don’t want to? How did you do it?
This is day 12 of my 31 days of Captured Bliss.
I do not believe we are meant to be eternally happy. I always deal with the down times in my life knowing without them we would not experience that blissful feeling. We need both in our lives to appreciate the good times. I just try to go with those feelings knowing eventually it will pass. Our lives are so blessed when we think of all the people living in fear in their own countries.
So true, the down adds more value to the up. Ready to go up now
We all have those days sometimes…..love you, Karen xo
Yes one of those days.
We all have days like that. I find working out helps, that endorphin rush always makes me smile even when I least feel like being happy.
Clairity I am heading out for a big long walk, great tip.
I agree with Clairity. Working out helps me but then so does indulging in a bag of oreos…
Herchel two great options, workout then Oreos. Thank you
I love that you make these kinds of days feel “ok”. We all have them. You have given me a way to not harbour guilt about them.
Nettie we do all have them we should feel ok about it.
You know what I love this post. Even though you were not feeling it, you still turned it into something blissfully truthfully beautiful.
Thanks Sarah, I surprised myself once I sat at the keyboard.
You have shown your vulnerable side which is such a brave thing to do . Good to hear you are feeling better. Wow I love the empathy and support in these comments. I too enjoy reading your blogs as you are so real and open. Looking forward to more posts.
The empathy and support is overwhelming, this blogging gig is more than I could ever have hoped for. More posts to come.