My house is going to auction tomorrow. I’m equal parts nervous and excited.
I’ve been asked many times if I’m looking forward to when ‘its all over’. And the truth, it’s a bit of Yes and a bit of No.
When I imagine that day when the move has been made and we’re settled into our new home I feel a strange pang of NO! I don’t want this process to end yet, I’m enjoying it.
It has me wondering… What do I want to hang on to? What’s so rewarding I don’t want it to end?
The 7 months of renovation that was physically, mentally and financially challenging? Or this crazy month, while our house has been on the market and we’ve tiptoed around a display-like home between bursts of frenzied tidying and cleaning?
Or is it the sales process itself I want to prolong? The awkward navigating of a minefield of mental games that’s testing me emotionally and mentally as I gear up for that 30 minute auction ride tomorrow.
Could it be I want to savour the packing up of the house? Revel in the challenge of physically moving interstate and the inevitable days of unpacking?
When I read that all back even I’m wondering why I’m not looking forward to ‘it all’ being over.
But, I’ve been thriving on this process. I’m challenged continually, because most of the time I’m way out of my comfort zone and it has me feeling alive.
I’m growing and learning from every step along this path and I awake each day with a real sense of purpose and direction.
My weeks are chocked full of what’s important and I enjoy planning for what’s next. I’m getting things done and absolutely loving the sense of achievement I’m getting as each milestone is reached.
I’m also accepting help and asking for help. which has me feeling very connected and supported by people who I love and love me.
Best of all my husband and I are a unified team, sharing a dream and working toward a shared goal.
And its these feelings and that sense of moving forward that I never want to end.
I’m in that space between desire and manifestation and it’s not a waiting space, its a very active space with rich rewards.
It’s the space where the magic of dreams and action create together.
Instead of denying yourself while you lose weight, suffering to save money, complaining while you renovate the house, checking out until you get the new job, pushing until you land the next client and numbing out until you reach your goal. Start enjoying the process of dream creation, because that process is your life.
Feel those sensations of value, achievement and worthiness.
Allow the pulse of life to flow freely through you once you actively step forward in any direction of your choosing.
It won’t all be easy. You’ll be challenged, tired, uncertain, uncomfortable BUT most of all alive, learning and growing.
You’ll have moments each day to savour and enjoy. And that’s how you live an exciting and fulfilled life.
And that’s what I don’t want to end.
Thank you for sharing your journey of manifestation and remind us that there is a space between desire and manifestation that we can enjoy.
Very inspiring post, thank you for sharing. I know what you mean, selling a house can be a very emotional process, even when you’re sick and tired of all the renovations, a part of you still doesn’t want everything to end. Our homes are full of memories from our lives, and even if you’re a minimalist who doesn’t let clutter like that pile up in their homes, you still probably have many possessions which would make you nostalgic.