I came alone. The room inside lit by hundreds of candles, the aroma wafting down the street offering a hit of the decadence within.
I entered to find a sea of goddesses all sitting cross-legged on the floor. Floaty dresses, hair in messy buns and a tribal beat playing softly in the background.
I’d dreamed of places like this and I was instantly in love with the atmosphere. I wanted to belong here.
I awkwardly perched on a stool at the rear, my handbag clutched to my chest as I soaked up the vibe and attempted to convince myself I did in fact belong.
I was here for the book launch of Lunar Abundance with author Dr Ezzie Spencer and hosted by Soul Sister Circle. It was curiosity that drew me here and my desire to connect with the community in my new home city.
As I settled on my perch my gaze fell upon one particular woman. She had such incredible presence. Her poise and grace stood out, even while seated on a floor cushion.
She seemed to be well-known and enclosed within a strong circle of friends.
My gaze drifted her way many times throughout the evening, I was curious about her and felt a deep longing for what she had. For friends, community and a supportive tribe.
Several days later I was at the doTERRA Australia Convention and there she was again.
This time she was being celebrated. Two and a half thousand people applauding her leadership and business success over the past 12 months.
In my eyes, she had it all, and in that moment I wanted her life.
So, as any modern-day stalker does I went home and Googled her, hoping to find her recipe for success.
What I discovered was not what I expected, it was so much more.
I found the parts of her story I didn’t know. It was recent and raw.
Her story of loss, grief and fertility challenges, and as I searched her blog posts for the happy ending I heartbreakingly realised there was none. There was no ‘babe in arms’ ending for her… yet.
The more I read, the more I shifted. Gaining new understanding and a grateful perspective on my own life.
As my heart shattered sending telepathic waves of kindness to her, tears welled in my eyes and I felt immediately blessed for the many riches in my own life.
My envious assumptions melted away, as my gratitude strengthened.
I’d gone from lustful admiration to feeling blessed, grateful and ridiculously lucky for all that I have.
Don’t get me wrong, I desire so much of what she has.
I want to belong to a community, to have a tribe who share many of my life views and who stand in support of each other.
I want to connect with my own version of that circle of goddesses.
I want my business to thrive and to make more money. I want my work to evolve, grow and expand in new ways.
I want to coach, teach and support people in more ways than I do now.
What you admire in others is an indication of what you want to create more of in your own life.
This will come. The intentions are set, my desires have been declared (quite publicly here) and with time and consistent action I’ll create this.
Until then, thanks to this woman and her gutsy story, I’m more grateful and choosing to enjoy this day and the next, more aware of the riches life has already bestowed upon me.
Next time you find yourself lingering on the success of another, lusting after the imagined perfect life, take a step back and ask yourself what it is you desire. (Its okay, it’s a great question.)
What dissatisfaction will this help fix? What is it you want more (or less) of?
Declare it. Own it. Consider ways to create it. Actions to take.
Then ease back, soften up and remember we all have a story. There will be highs and lows. We all ebb and flow.
Pause and become aware of what you already have and celebrate that. Find where the joy exists now? Feel it. Be grateful.
Enjoy today’s blessings, desire more, take action and be kind along the way. It’s a recipe for a dream life.
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