I was told this could happen, I didn’t believe it.
I read about it happening, I still didn’t believe it.
I talked to someone it had happened to, I chose not to believe it.
I felt it happening, I did not want to believe it.
Then it happened, I reached day 275 of my Project 365 and began to think about stopping.
That bizarre phenomenon that swirls in, part way through a long and lengthy project. The niggly urge to quit when you are almost there.
You know it…….
The course you took for months, even years and abandoned with one module to go.
The garden bed you dug out and never replanted.
The renovations that spanned weeks and then months and ended with walls unfinished and floors yet to sand.
The artwork you so lovingly prepared, gathering dust while patiently awaiting its detail.
The story you furiously wrote now buried deep in your hard drive, waiting years for its final few chapters.
The projects we so excitedly take on. The momentum we roll with during those first dreamy months. The pit of energy and enthusiasm seems bottomless and inexhaustible.
Then time drifts by and the twists and turns of life slowly steer you away. Your life is evolving and changing just as you are.
Our enthusiasm dips, frustration now clouds our initial desire. Life is pulling you away from the project and dragging away the dream.
The question finally explodes into consciousness……Why am I doing this and should I stop?
I don’t believe in finishing for the sake of finishing. I also know an unfinished project can become like a chattering monkey sitting high on your back. Distracting and taunting you with unfulfilled desires you cannot ignore.
What to do? How do you know if you have a monkey?
Go back and remember the reasons you started. Ask yourself these questions.
Why did I start?
How did I want to feel when I was finished? Do I feel this now?
What were the gains? Do you have them yet?
If the answer is yes I feel this, I have this, then stop, move on, you are there, no looking back.
If the answer is no, I still want this, and I know this project moves me toward that feeling, that gain, then examine where the doubt and frustration are coming from?
Since I began my 365 project back in July last year life has certainly changed. I am studying now and am more involved in other daily practices. My frustration is time and not the project itself. The project feels fabulous, I love the creativity, the growth and the journey I am on while discovering my true style.
My enthusiasm has been reignited, I am now carving out photo taking time. I am planning my session for earlier in the day. I have written my stop doing list and I am saying no. I am streamlining my life and clearing the path toward my desire to feel fabulous and true to my creative.
So without further ado I am off to take photos, with a big juicy smile, camera in hand and my free copy of 8 ways to Improve Your Photography to inspire me.
Time to fess up, what projects have you left unfinished? Are they now chattering monkeys on your back?