“What are we doing today Mum?”
“I don’t know, what do you feel like doing?”
This has been our life for the last 3 weeks.
One of the great joys of a holiday is the freedom from schedules and commitments.
Unscheduled time that allows days to unfold and adventures to be had without the usual constraints of daily life.
Our senses are heightened, the sky seems bluer, the flowers seem brighter and we have a renewed zest for life.
Some of our greatest ideas and inspiration come when we are uncertain of what’s next and adventure and exploration are driving our days.
This holiday phenomenon has got me thinking a lot about uncertainty and not knowing.
How to stop that relentless search for the right answer.
To move forward without the elusive formulae that guarantees success.
To quit calculating risk, debating options and painstakingly researching before making a move.
To make more mistakes and to get lost more often.
To allow feeling good to become more important than the schedule, the plan and the daily grind.
To admit when I cannot see what is next, when I don’t have an answer or the way forward is unclear.
To embrace ‘I don’t know’ as an opportunity to explore options and solve problems as I seek new ideas and become more creative.
I don’t know then becomes liberating, freeing you to find a new way.
And yet I continue to resist ‘I don’t know’.
As an avid planner and organiser control has meant knowing what to expect, calling the shots and having all the answers.
Not knowing leaves me feeling vulnerable and in a space of discomfort.
Not knowing requires letting go and trusting.
Letting go of the schedule and trusting in the flow.
Letting go of having all the answers and trusting you will figure it out.
Letting go of knowing the way and trusting your instincts to guide you.
Letting go of false smiles and trusting those you love for support.
Letting go of the rigid map and allowing serendipity to enhance the journey
Letting go of finding the rules and trusting your creativity.
Letting go of numbing your senses and trusting the emotional pain will guide you.
How can we soak up life without locking it down?
Allow for spontaneity, simple, regular unplanned moments.
Take that courageous leap before you ready and be prepared to learn along the way.

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