The alarm sounds, 4.40am! My feet gingerly hit the floor and I quietly move through the darkness to the bathroom.
I shower quickly, apply a full face of makeup, tie my hair in a neat ponytail and wiggle my way into a pair of stockings. I take a moment to marvel at what’s now my daily routine. A routine I never once imagined all those years ago.
Its been almost 2 years since my family made the gutsy move north, the most significant step so far in the creation of our dream lifestyle.
A life my husband and I talked about in great detail and painstakingly planned for, well before we hit the ‘go’ button.
I still recall the lengthy day dreams and conversations with family and friends that always revolved around beaches, forests and flexibly working from home and cafes.
Even the planning sessions and late nights spent scheming against our comfort zones never revealed anything other than coastal, cruisy, flexible work and play.
Not once did I imagine the twisty turn my path would take. That I’d move to a coastal place and then take on a corporate day job in the city, that requires 4 hours of commuting each day.
Even as I write this it seems a tad crazy, and yet in many more ways I know it’s so right.
So what happened? Did I give up on my dream? Have I quit?
I’ll be honest, a few weeks back things were a little bleak. I thought I’d failed at my business, and in turn my dream life. I even felt guilty for wanting this new job.
As ‘right’ as this job felt I was worried I was going backwards and I wrestled with some old and limiting beliefs. Things like success means quitting your day job (not getting a new one), and I must stick to the plan no matter what, even if that means ignoring my changing desires and wants.
I felt myself dancing with the dark shadow of failure and shame, as I retreated from my passion and my business.
But if there’s one major lesson I’ve learnt these past months…. it’s that our dreams don’t follow a linear path, our gutsy wild dreams love to branch out as they flourish and we grow.
The more we nourish and nurture our dreams with goals, time, energy, courage and attention the more, twisty and glorious directions our paths may want to go.
Once we ease up our tight, suffocating hold on how our dream life ‘should’ be unfolding, we allow space for opportunities to show up and be seen.
I know now there are many more ways for me to lead a fulfilling life I love than sitting in a beachside cafe with a laptop.
I’ve tapped into my deeper longing and followed the desire to belong and feel connected to my community. Something I was struggling to achieve while working from home with predominantly interstate clients.
I now spend my mornings as an executive concierge, meeting and helping oodles of wonderful people. I’m now part of a team and I love it.
After months of shame fuelled hiding I can feel the desire to build again, to step in and evolve my business. I’m super keen to spend my afternoons crafting new offerings and ways to share my insights and learnings from this recent twist.
As my roots bury deeper into this community the stability has strengthened my confidence and reignited my passion to help you, my fellow dreamers, allow your dreams to evolve and flourish too.
Wherever you are on your journey I do hope you listen to understand your dreams and allow space for them to expand and branch out as you evolve.
Because leading a great life, a dreamed of life, requires continuous realignment to your values and desires.
How you can achieve that may surprise you.
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