And to be completely honest I’ve been wallowing in a pool of procrastination.
After a gung-ho 12 months of serious achievement, I’ve been feeling stuck.
Three years ago I committed to a bold and defined goal, to move interstate, and I wrote a long list of all the things we’d need to do to make that happen.
Then each month, each week I knew where to direct my time, energy and attention and I prioritised the tasks that would inch me toward that goal.
I ticked off the big, the small and even the overwhelming tasks, day by day, week by week, month by month, year on year because I knew what I was aiming for, and by when…. And we did it, we moved on time and with well planned ease.
We’re here and our new nest is ready. Cupboards are neat, the pantry is labelled and even the washing is up to date.
The kids have started school, hubby is settling in to a new work routine and me…. well I’m flopping around like a fish on the sand.
I know its time. Its time for me to establish my life here too.
Time to decide what I want to do moving forward, to how I want to contribute and what I’m committing to this year.
Time to consider what will not only support my family’s dreams and future, but also support mine.
I pressed pause on new work or projects at the end of November.
Choosing to spending the holidays settling us into our new home and simply hangin’ with the kids, exploring our new neighbourhood and finding butchers, markets and shops to love.
The nest is fluffed and my energies have been restored, it’s time.
I know I want to make some changes, to evolve, and I’m surrounded by opportunities… but how do I choose?
I’ve been trying so hard to make the ‘right’ choice… And that’s what has me stuck.
Even after you decide a change is in order, you can end up making no changes at all.
You know the cycle…. you decide to do something different, you look into the options, and then start trying to find the ‘right’ thing. The perfect choice.
You know you’re risking what you have now, and so you want to get it ‘right’.
You get stuck, paralysed by your desire to find the best option.
Too scared to get it wrong, you convince yourself things are okay as is, and you settle. Settle for less than you want, less than you are capable of.
Until… one day you can’t settle any longer because dissatisfaction doesn’t evaporate, it grows.
And the cycle repeats.
But I refuse to remain paralysed any longer by my desire to get it ‘right’.
Because there is no getting it right. Perfectionism only leads to procrastination and more stuckness.
So today I’m choosing… narrowing down that giant list of ideas to the 1 or 2 opportunities that I’ll commit to above all else. The opportunities that’ll allow me to contribute in a way that adds value and fulfils me.
And, I’m committing to doing something daily that moves me forward.
That’s a start. It’ll give me momentum. It’ll unstick me.
It feels manageable and doable for me right now.
If you’re ready for change, and feeling stuck, forget waiting to find the ‘right’ thing or the ‘best’ thing, before you begin.
Start doing something.
The rest will flow.