I left nothing behind. Gave every ounce I had, both on the day and in the lead up.
I awoke the next day drained, exhausted and still elated.
Time to rejoice, rejuvenate and restore……..I had earned it.
Celebratory lunch and dinner dates were planned. Make up lessons booked as treats to myself, followed up with some delicious retail therapy. Physical rejuvenation was scheduled as I planned for extra Yoga and Pilates.
I thought I had a perfect plan to feel fabulous and get it all done.
As the week sailed by my energy continued to dip and I began to run out of time. My appointments, tasks and activities became reschedules, cancellations and unchecked notes on my list.
My plan was more lack lustre than fabulous.
As someone who thrives on achievement and prides herself on follow through this was a yucky, awful pill to swallow……I had not done all that I said I would, all that I had planned.
I began to dissect each day, hoping to uncover the path my time and energy had simply disappeared down. I was on the hunt for that mysterious monster who had swallowed my mornings, devoured my afternoons and left me zapped of enthusiasm.
What had happened?????
And there was my answer……written boldly in my sparkly, green pen, straight across the bottom of my glorious plan. ‘Allow time for self renewal’.
I recalled the exhaustion I felt when I wrote those words and my desire to refuel when my emotional, mental and physical reserves were at an all time low.
I wisely knew I was in need of restorative time to rejuvenate my mind, my body and my soul.
Somehow as my mind and body screamed out for LESS I had filled my life with MORE.
As quickly as I refuelled, I depleted myself by racing around.
Allowing space for self renewal is not a time driven plan, it is not slavery to the clock and it is not racing from one appointment to another.
It is intuitive moments of unstructured time, free from guilt and expectation to quite simply just be.
When you feel your reserves are low, instead of scheduling relaxing activities why not allocate time to do nothing?
Moments to simply listen to the desires of the body and the mind and indulge your secret whims.
Space for self renewal is time for you and we all need to allow more time for this.
Tell me, how do you renew and restore?